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A Deeper Vision

"The circumstances we ask God to change are often the circumstances God is using to change us." ~ Lucado

Over the last few months, as I have boldly prayed for God to save my actual vision, I have also prayed for my figurative vision. 

Over the last few weeks, while on medical leave, I've boldly prayed for God to let me see areas of my life in which I needed improvement. What lessons did I need to learn?

My family and I have had many losses this year. Each loss I've experienced has affected me in a different way. However, I've come to realize I've gained so much from each loss. 

Life lessons are everywhere!

I've gained a new perspective of God's family, of inclusion, of leadership, of God's love, and of Christ's example.

I've gained a new stage of motherhood. I now have the role of watching all of our wonderful sons navigate life, with its ups and downs, all the while relying on God to take care of them -- instead of me.

I've gained more time with my best friend who just happens to be my husband. He has been by my side taking care of my every need during this time. However, he has also provided surprises and sweetness I never knew I needed or wanted. We now have more time to have deeper discussions and to just focus on each other - again. Thirty-six years have flown by! 💖

I've gained a new appreciation for my health. My sister was such an encouragement to me. She fought through her illness until she reached her reward. She showed me, in order to truly live, we have to be ready to die. I miss her more than I can say, but I am thankful for such wonderful memories and life lessons. 

While I have been healing and recuperating from my eye procedures, I now truly understand the importance and power of encouragement. I've received numerous voicemails, private messages, text messages, cards, flowers, gifts, and goodie bags from so many wonderful people.

I've had people pray with me specifically and others, even strangers, who have let me know they were praying for me.

I've had conversations about God's care and protection with many people. The most impactful "God" conversations came from those with which I don't normally have these types of conversations. Their faith, which I had no knowledge of before, strengthened mine as they told me they knew God would take care of me.

I am beyond thankful for my colleagues, my students, my acquaintances, my church family, my friends, and my family. 

I always thought I was good at encouraging others. However, I know there are certain people who have a true gift for encouraging others. They have sent multiple cards. They have texted me weekly and some have texted me daily. These gestures (big & small) have cheered my soul and lifted my spirits.

I am beyond thankful God has taken care of me and provided me with excellent medical care and has seen me through the process of saving my vision. However, I am even more thankful He has provided me with a deeper vision -- one of a true appreciation for all of my blessings. 

As I continue through this healing process, I pray my deeper vision continues to allow me to see through to God in all aspects of my daily life.

"Losses that puncture our world might actually become places to see. To see through to God." ~ Voskamp

Happy Thanksgiving!

~ Jan 💓

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